riverrat's blog

Back in March, I was feeling really paunchy and clothes were beginning to get tight and I wasn't satisfied with how I looked carrying some extra weight. So, I completely changed my eating habits with the hope of going from 225 to 180 by the time my vacation rolled around this past July...and I'm very proud to say I achieved that goal. Now, while trying to maintain with portion control, I currently weigh in at 175 and try very carefully not to destroy all of the hard work and self control I've put in. I've taken down most pictures when I was heavier, so if you notice the difference, now you'll know why. However, I had one very rude guy tell me my extremities look like sticks. I'm sorry he feels that way, but personally I feel much better at this healthier weight and I blocked him. There is no need for criticism like that from anyone.

I think this is a great site. It's very easy to communicate with anyone in the world, and for those lucky ones, they actually get to meet others and wrestle. True, I have 2 past opponents listed, but if I have to be honest, I originally met both of them from another site, and both are super great guys. After a couple of years here on MF, I still have yet to meet someone through this site to wrestle with. I know there are many who maybe don't share the same interests as I  or want someone who is more of a challenge (since my wrestling knowledge is extremely limited and I'm still a "rookie"), or guys are looking for someone more muscular. I'm becoming a little disheartened here because I have been trying to set some matches up recently, yet they never pan out. Location is also a factor, I'm sure, because I'm not really that close to a heavily populated city without some travel involved. But...I haven't given up yet. I still want to wrestle alot more men with the kind of match I'm looking for until I fulfill that desire for the match I fantasize about. And it may come as a surprise from someone I would least expect it to. I don't think most guys don't understand how extremely difficult it is for me to try to schedule a match, as time is limited for me, and I feel terrible that after making arrangements a couple of times in the past, those plans had to be cancelled due to circumstances beyond my control. But, I'm still here, eager to learn, passionate to wrestle and get that man to man testosterone flowing and finishing it all off with a happy ending. So, if anyone reading this is close, or plans to be passing through my area, hit me up. Let's see if you're the man that's going to fulfill that ultimate match I want.

How does one throw all cares away and break out of their normal persona in order to have a great wrestling match? I have received comments from a few guys who claim that my photos look intimidating or that I look tough, when in reality I'm not at all. They are just poses for the camera in order to maybe find someone interested in a fun match. As stated in my profile, I have very limited experience in wrestling and on the very rare occasions I've had one, I wear out quickly and easily. But with those few that I've had, I've always enjoyed myself. The problem I have is that buried deep within me is a guy that just wants to let it all go and enjoy a match the way that I fantasize about. However, when the time comes I actually meet up with someone, I'm too shy to just cut loose. Nerves get the best of me. Wrestling around with another masculine guy in all forms of dress (or undress) has always been a turn on for me ever since I was a kid. The old Charles Atlas ads in comic books that showed the skinny guy getting sand kicked in his face by a big muscle dude was always a big turn on for me. Especially after the skinny guy builds up muscle and kicks the other guy's ass. I guess I suffer from a lack of self confidence and I'm always concerned my opponent won't like me. There are MANY hot looking guys on this site that interest me, but when I see the photos of their past oppenents, I realize that I am not in the same league. I've never been blessed with movie star looks or a hot looking body,  and I think I'm too concerned over my own appearance to actually let everything go the way I'd like and truly enjoy myself. But how do I break out of the true nature of my character? Even if I were to meet someone and put the act of being a "tough guy" on, it just doesn't feel comfortable to me. It seems unnatural because my true personality is more of a kind hearted, sincere and sensitive guy. But just once, I would like to meet up with someone and allow all inhibitions to disappear. Unfortunately, I have no idea how to delve into that part of my desires. Any advice?

Because of my work schedule, among other reasons, it's difficult for me to set up wrestling matches. I don't get many in...but there are times when I get so damn horny for an erotic match I can't take it.

I had placed an ad on another site a couple of years ago specifically detailing what I was seeking with wrestling. I received a response and agreed to meet at a location 2 minutes away from my home. So I threw on a pair of jeans and a ballcap, but remained shirtless and hopped in my car to drive down and meet this guy. He was already parked at the location and I have to admit, my dick stirred when I saw him sitting in his car, shirtless as well. I knew this was going to be fun. We introduced ourselves and he followed me back to my house. We remained outside for a while and had a bit of conversation, but we were soon throwing down and exchanging some jabs. He got me pinned up against the house and started grinding his hard dick into mine as he punched my chest. I was able to push him away, and I unzipped my jeans to set the cock loose. He unzipped his jeans and did the same...and there we were, fighting, cocks hard and throbbing. We remained outside for a bit longer, continuing to exchange some jabs until neither of us could take it anymore and went inside where we stripped naked and finished our bout, ending with some awesome sucking.

Sadly, that was the last match I've had...and I'd like another one. I see on here that many of you have a long list of opponents. How does that happen? Maybe I'm in a location that isn't a popular travel spot, therefore, there may not be many passing through. I also realize that limited availability on my part also makes things difficult. But any advice anyone has to help in my endeavors to gain a match soon would be appreciated.